I can’t believe that she just ordered me around like I was her puppy after not speaking to me for four hours. I understand that she is worried about her friend but that is no excuse for the way she was treating me. I might be her mate and I will love her unconditionally but I won’t be her lap dog. We have some serious talking to do.
I walked into her apartment and set her things by the door. I am not going to be snooping around her apartment without her permission as much as I want to.
I did walk around her living room and stood by the big window that faces the Statue of Liberty. It was a beautiful view but I couldn’t enjoy it with my mood.
I don’t know how long I stood there lost in thought when I finally heard the elevator stop on this floor. I could tell it was Bella by the way she walks and her scent.
She finally walks into the apartment and I feel her joy, happiness, glee and relief coming from her. I wait for her to acknowledge me; she doesn’t deserve my immediate attention at this time.
It doesn’t take long for her to notice that I’m not coming to her. She walks forward and stands against the wall between the living room and kitchen.
“Jasper, are you alright?” she asks.
I don’t know how to answer her without it coming out harsh so I use my emotions to let her know that I am upset with her but that I’m also understanding. I hope she is able to understand them.
She sighs. “Jasper, I am sorry for the way I’ve acted since I heard my sister was ill. I know it’s no excuse for the way I treated you and I hope you can forgive me for my stubbornness and coldness towards you.”
I feel her honestly and her remorse at having treated me like she did. But I will make her work for it for just a bit.
I don’t respond to her and I just shrugged my shoulders at her. I know it’s childish but I’m not about to enter a relationship with no communication and with her acting like she can treat me like she did.
“Jasper please, I’m sorry. I promise not to do it again. I mean I will fuck up every now and then but I won’t do it on purpose and I will try not to close myself off from you. I know that there is a lot we need to talk about and we will but so you know I’m still stubborn as a mule and I don’t really speak about how I’m feeling right away. I will try to do better but please can you look at me and forgive me.”
I turned around and I see and feel her sadness.
“Fine sweets but next time you better talk to me about what is worrying you. This is a two way relationship and I won’t put up with being treated like a puppy or like shit. You are my mate as I am yours and we need to work together or this won’t work. I am not asking you to change yourself for me just like I won’t change for you but to compromise like every other couple. Now that is out of the way, how is your friend?”
She sighed in relief and walked toward me but instead of standing next to me she sat on the couch. She patted the sit next to her and I sat down. She moved and put her back against the arm of the couch and put her feet on my lap.
I raised an eyebrow at her and she giggled. After getting comfortable she told me what happen downstairs while I massaged her feet.
Gosh her toes are so cute. Fuck! I just lost my man card.
“Cassie is doing ok, she just have the flu. Carlisle gave me a shot then sent me to get her meds. That is why I took so long. Sorry for not telling you. Something happened and I was too excited.”
“What happened?” I asked her. I could feel how happy and giddy she was getting.
“I’m sorry I can’t tell you, it’s not mine to tell but Carlisle’s.” She said.
“Alright, so let’s talk about us. How are we going about this?” I asked while I pushed hard on the heel of her foot.
“Ok, oohh that feels good. Um… yeah ok us.” She stuttered flustered. “Well I want us to date and get to know each other. While I’m very attracted to you and I would love nothing more than jump you and fuck you I think we need to get to know each other better.”
Holy shit she just said that she wanted to fuck me. I could feel myself getting hard at the thought of her riding me, grinding that sweet pussy of hers on my cock.
“Jasper.” She moaned. That snapped me out of my little fantasy. I looked over to her and she had her head thrown back in ecstasy and her nipples where hard.
Shit I must have let go of my emotions while thinking of her riding me. I pull back on them slowly as not to give her whiplash and I sent serenity in the room.
“Sorry sweets, I got lost in thought for a moment.” I said a bit embarrassed.
She just smirked at me and winked.
“Did I say something you liked cowboy?” Oh that minx. Two can play this game. I flashed her my killer smile and leaned closer to her face.
“Now Darlin’, you just said that you wanted to get to know me better so don’t start something you can’t finish. I am more than willing to do anything you want but keep in mind you said slow.” I let me scent flow to her and her eyes rolled into her head and moaned.
“Not fair Jasper.” She pouted.
“Your rules darlin’ but I agree. It’s been too long and I want to get to know you while we date. We will do this at a normal rate but only doing what works for us, meaning that if tomorrow you realize you love me then you can tell me and don’t stick to some notion that it is too early. Do you understand what I mean?”
“Yeah I do. We will go with the flow, date and be together. Now, I know that you are not fuckward but we need to get this out of the way so there is no confusion. You know I work and that is something I won’t give up. I am very independent and I won’t give that up. Gifts. I am better at accepting them but please nothing crazy and I still dislike surprises. All I ask is that you take into consideration the things I like and don’t act like you know better than me. Now your turn.”
“I agree with everything you said. I won’t turn into a lost puppy and ask you about your whereabouts all the time, but please for my peace of mind just let me know where you are so I can get to you in case of an emergency. I love that you make your way and love what you are doing and I won’t stop you. I will shower you with gifts but I know from before that you don’t like flashy so they will be kept classy and simple. And I will always consider your feelings before doing something you might or might not like.”
I told her as I put her foot down and took her hand. She threaded her fingers with mine and smiled.
“This feels nice Jasper. I like the feeling of your skin against mine. Are there any question you want to ask me?”
“Just one for now Darlin’. Now I want you to think about it and I’m not asking for a definite answer, but have you thought about being turned?” I was a little afraid of her answer. Just because we are mates doesn’t mean that she has to change. I will forever be with her.
“To be honest, before you guys came along I didn’t think about it but you know I work for the vampire ‘nation.’” She giggles. “But you should know that I’ve been approached by a vampire that said that he will protect me while human if I decided not to change and pass the business on to family. But now that you are back in my life and my mate I have thought about it. I haven’t come up with an answer yet but I will let you know as soon as I know.” She said. But what got me thinking was about the vampire she was talking about.
“Who was the vamp Bella?” I asked trying not to growl at her. Its’ not her fault but my instinct as her mate is coming out.
“He said his name was Garrett O’ Malley, but he didn’t say anything else about who he was. He comes and checks up on me once a year to make sure I haven’t told anyone and to make sure I’m not in trouble with any other vamps.”
“Alright. Has he shown up yet?”
“No, I haven’t seen him. He never comes around the same time so I can’t pin point when he will show up. Why?”
“I just want to make sure you are ok. My instincts are telling me to protect you but I know they are irrational right now. I just need to meet him to make sure he is no danger to you and I’ll be alright. Please darlin’ let me know when he comes.”
“I will Jaz. Now I’m hungry and I have to go into work in the morning. Are you staying with me or going to a hotel?”
“That is up to you, Darlin’. What do you want to do, what do you feel comfortable doing?” I won’t push her but I would love to stay here with her.
“I have a spare room where you can stay. After you talk to Carlisle about his news then you can decide if you want to stay here with me or live with him. I will be ok either way.” I nodded at her in understanding.
I wonder what Carlisle’s news could be that would help me decide my living arraignments.
“Ok Darlin’, I’m going to put my stuff in your spare room. Will I see you before you go to bed?”
“Yeah but just for a bit.” She said as she was walking towards the kitchen to get her dinner.
I went into the spare room and got comfortable for a bit. I think things between us will move fast but not rushed. I can’t wait to get to know her better and fall in love with this Isabella Swan.